Got to keep on pushing through!

Hello again readers,

Thought I’d just do a post to basically give you an update of how things are with me at the moment – things have been rather busy, but a good busy, which is great! 🙂

Job wise, my job is going really well & I’ve been studying towards my next exam which is coming up this Thursday (yikes!). I’m feeling more nervous about this one but I’ll keep my head in the books this week after work and hopefully the hard work will pay off.

Health could be better, but it could be worse! 🙂 Have been having issues with my stoma again and burning skin issues around my stoma. I saw my stoma nurse last week and she gave me some adhesive strips to put on underneath my bag over the area which was irritated by stomach acid to protect it which seems to be working well so far. With my stoma bags, I have always had to cut them a little bigger to allow my stoma to be free to function a little more than most people that have stomas as I get an aggravated and narrow stoma more easily due to the muscle tightening. This is only made worse if I have a really snug fit bag around my stoma. Going to see my surgeon on Friday morning to discuss having another little procedure to potentially cut/widen the muscle where my stoma leaves my stomach at skin level again as I have been suffering with more pain and episodes of swelling/hardness increasingly recently. Talking to my stoma nurse, it seems that this may have to be done as a more regular thing alongside me still continuing to dilate my stoma myself to keep it comfortable. Alternatively, if much improvement hasn’t been gained after a few times of this procedure, then last resort would be having to create a new stoma on the opposite side of my stomach, but I aren’t worrying about that yet as it isn’t necessary and, fingers crossed, this procedure will be able to help get things under control again. I have also noticed recently with the stoma issues that trapped wind has become more regular and troublesome, which is painful and gets quite tedious. Sometimes eating meals I also feel very sick and windy not long after on a number of occasions recently, today at lunch being the last time. It’s no fun & games but I’ve been through much worse so I will get through this too fighting.

Last Sunday, I did the #GetYourBellyOut Sponsored Humber Bridge walk with some of the amazing, inspiring ‘bellies’ from the #GetYourBellyOut support group. We had fun and a laugh despite the cold and blustery (to say the least) weather and all for a good cause, raising around £1400 for Crohn’s & Colitis UK. Well done bellies!

#GetYourBellyOut visits the Humber Bridge!

#GetYourBellyOut visits the Humber Bridge!

Life otherwise is pretty fantastic! Family life is good, have had some fab times with friends recently and have also started a new chapter in my life regarding somebody special. I tend to keep my private life from my blog but I feel that he definitely deserves a mention. All I will say on that note for now is that it is absolutely amazing to find somebody who loves me for the person that I am – bag, scars, faults & all. Also, somebody who sees me as a person, not my condition or stoma, & appreciates me all the more for it & helps me to embrace it, who helps me to grow and properly supports me in such a selfless way ♥ So, if you’re reading this & worrying about nobody ever accepting you or loving you for the person you are after your surgery, or with your condition, then please have faith, that it does happen & you will find somebody who loves you for everything that you are. Of course, you might find a few frogs before you find your prince so to speak, but anybody who cannot support you or accept you for the warrior that you are quite honestly doesn’t deserve your time or effort 🙂

Until next time,

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Bravery.

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There are so many people at the moment; a few of those close to me, who possess such bravery & really inspire me. There are people who refuse to be beaten and keep smiling when it seems like the hardest thing possible for them & that in itself is just so inspiring beyond words.

Seeing such courage & braving is exceptionally amazing, especially when people have every right to complain yet carry on regardless and make the most of the cards they’ve been dealt so to speak & it is really quite thought-provoking.

When was the last time you woke up on a morning & felt happy to just lie there and feel the covers above you? When was the last time you woke up and felt grateful to be alive, despite the fact that the rain might be hammering down outside & a mentally busy day at work is ahead of you? When was the last time that you actually woke up and felt grateful to be able to work? When was the last time you woke up and felt grateful to not be in as much pain or no pain at all? When was the last time you felt grateful for being able to eat? When was the last time you felt grateful to just be alive? 

It can be so easy to take things for granted; including all those things above. Even some of those things, some people unfortunately don’t have. Some are physically unable to work no matter how mentally strong they may be, some are unable to eat, some have to wake up & face their lot that day that maybe their pain is just the same as yesterday, and sadly, sometimes their pain has increased. Since my operation, I wake up every day feeling so thankful for not having that degree of pain that I experienced pretty much consistently for 15 years of my life pretty much from as early as I can remember. Even if I have aching legs or a bit of a stomach ache or my stoma isn’t 100% happy, I still feel grateful that I am able to get up & go about my daily life pretty much every day. I feel grateful every time I eat, for actually being able to eat with no pain or not even being able to face food. Never again will I take something that may seem so simple and ordinary, such as eating, for granted.

Be thankful for the things & people you have. Everyone has problems and their own issues, but it is becoming much too apparent in society these days that more people are increasingly taking things for granted, such as good health. Yes, we all have a right to complain! We wouldn’t be human if we didn’t, we all have emotions and we all have trying times. Yes, we have all been guilty at some point of taking things for granted. However, we all possess it within ourselves to just pause, breathe and reflect for a moment and remember the things that we have to be thankful for, no matter how small or large. For those of you struggling, hold your head up high & smile & remember that things will get better & pain does end. Let’s hold a thought for those people because I, for one, am very proud of every single one of you that has to overcome such painful and unfair barriers daily, often or even at all.

Here is to the inspirational people out there; keep smiling.

 

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